He vowed to His creator he would
only worship Him but when he came here he let the fantasies of this world
distract him from what he was sent here for.
When his life suffered from the consequences, he fruitlessly tried to find the
root of his sufferings. He started cursing his fate. He started bemoaning. He
learned the words like ‘curse’, ‘hatred’ and ‘vengeance’ but forget the one his
Creator had taught him. The word was ‘sabr’. Patience.
“But for those who remained patient and did good deeds there is forgiveness and great reward.” Al-Quran [11:11]
The days went by and he began to notice that some other people possessed better things then he did. It gave rise to a new emotion, envy. He started complaining and eventually learned to snatch. He forgot something.
“Allah’s provision is the best and long-lasting.”
Even snatching could not comfort his disturbed soul so to feign tranquility he developed drugs. A crucial lesson was long forgotten.
“Hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah.” Al-Quran [13:28]
He desperately busied himself with the worldly pleasures in order to distract himself from the hollowness he had started feeling in the core of his heart but that hollowness kept haunting him. It kept nagging him about the part of his essence he was losing because of his wrongdoings.
“Then, after that, your hearts were hardened and became as stones or even worse in hardness. And indeed, there are stones out of which rivers gush forth, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which split asunder so that water flows from them, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which fall down for fear of Allah. And Allah is not unaware of what you do.” Al-Quran [2:74]
“But for those who remained patient and did good deeds there is forgiveness and great reward.” Al-Quran [11:11]
The days went by and he began to notice that some other people possessed better things then he did. It gave rise to a new emotion, envy. He started complaining and eventually learned to snatch. He forgot something.
“Allah’s provision is the best and long-lasting.”
Even snatching could not comfort his disturbed soul so to feign tranquility he developed drugs. A crucial lesson was long forgotten.
“Hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah.” Al-Quran [13:28]
He desperately busied himself with the worldly pleasures in order to distract himself from the hollowness he had started feeling in the core of his heart but that hollowness kept haunting him. It kept nagging him about the part of his essence he was losing because of his wrongdoings.
“Then, after that, your hearts were hardened and became as stones or even worse in hardness. And indeed, there are stones out of which rivers gush forth, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which split asunder so that water flows from them, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which fall down for fear of Allah. And Allah is not unaware of what you do.” Al-Quran [2:74]
Soon there wasn’t left a single
place on Earth where he could find himself a moment of peace. Guilt was eating
up the rotten remains of his soul. It was as if every single wrong he had ever
done was clung to his throat, suffocating him.
“We shall cast terror into the hearts of those who disbelieve.” Al-Quran [3:151]
“We shall cast terror into the hearts of those who disbelieve.” Al-Quran [3:151]
He realized he had no one to go
to for help. No place to hide. Nothing that could stop him from falling. It was
all his own fault. He had let the world distract him from the actual purpose of
his existence. He had traded the eternal success for a temporary fantasy. He
had no one else to blame for what he had done. He deserved what he was getting.
How will he ever face his Creator who warned him not to get carried away with
the illusions of this life?!
Just when he was about give up he
felt a presence around him.
He found something warm and bright swirling around him in the air. He felt the warmth penetrating his heart, healing his soul and he fell on his knees in prostration.
He found something warm and bright swirling around him in the air. He felt the warmth penetrating his heart, healing his soul and he fell on his knees in prostration.
“Say, ‘O MY servants who have committed excess against
themselves, do not despair of Allah’s mercy. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins,
for it is He who is the Ever-forgiving, Merciful.” Al-Quran
[39:53]
“Indeed, Allah loves those who repent, and He loves those
who purify themselves.” Al-Quran [2:222]
